Saturday, April 08, 2006

hrm ok tt was definitely one of e more sian weeks of smm.. first of all we have 2 iv sessions, one right on mondae and another one on wednesday.. somemore it's 16G needle.. oh my god the size is BIG man.. the thickness is like 3 times 20G needle and it's twice as long.. i was like.. i can so totally faint on the spot.. the diameter or smth of the needle itself without the cantheter is alr 1.7mm.. 18G is onli 1.2mm loh.. and 20G is even smaller.. omg the process is murderously painful.. as in u can feel the needle go in, and dislodging tt time can feel the roughness of the cantheter go into ur vein.. shrudders..
then there was this ultra hard theory paper test.. omg.. the questions were like how many bones are there in lumbar? gosh.. totalli stunned.. haha but dunno y i passed it la.. so yea.. haha.. muz be i too good alr buden i dunno.. wahahahaha... tink they shld post me to 9-5 job for this sia..
hrm something else happened.. my granddad(mom's dad) passed away like afew days ago.. i mean on tuesday i tink.. so tt's y there's no one at home right now coz both my parents flew back to china.. of coz i'm like shocked la.. but it's not tt severe.. dunno y.. i mean yea i was quite close to him when i was still a kid, when he brings me to parks n stuff.. but tt's like so long ago n time juz seemed to haf erased most emotional attachments.. so now i can feel the impact of the news but it's not entirely tt saddening.. i dunno.. am i like so cold blooded? hai.. it's been like 2 years since i saw him at some old folk's home.. n i dun realli wanna interfere in wad adults do or e way they treat him, but sometimes after all these years why cant ppl be more tolerant to each other? i dunno.. it's not anything within my control either..
alright enuf of the sad stuff.. i mean.. life goes on doesn't it? what's lost is lost it cant be helped.. death and rebirth, onli with death will there be life..
and todae is my bdae.. and my parents are not even in singapore.. oh what a way to spend my bdae innit? but to tell e truth, to me it's juz like any other day.. maybe juz tt now i'm another year older.. and more responsibilies comes with it as well..

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